Wednesday, May 30, 2012

25... The year that wasn't

Last night I was having trouble sleeping.

I kept thinking about the fact that I had 72 hours left of being 25 years old.

Over the past few weeks I have thought about how much I have not enjoyed my 25th year.

I have taken and failed the Oregon Bar Exam twice, and with that I have been stuck studying Oregon Law for an entire year, give or take a few weeks. I have lost friends due to untimely deaths, may you both rest in peace, Paola and Jennifer. Along with that I have had to watch friends going through such tremendous amounts of grief as these two girls were both taken from this world much too soon. I have had to go through the loss of one of my most favorite uncles, a caring, intelligent, loving, and wonderful man, my uncle Bud. I have had to watch Joe deal with the loss of his first grandparent, his grandpa Lee, a man who was always willing to lend a helping hand and who definitely is deeply missed. I have been jobless the entire year. I have had to help my father pack up an entire house due to foreclosure, when he should have had help from those who lived there with him.

I ended my 24th year graduating from law school. I thought 25 would be fantastic. It really hasn't. But I cannot simply leave this message with the bad, even though it has been predominant in my life.

There have been some good things happen this year. Joe and I have grown together even more. We have had to go through a lot of hard times this past year and I really think it has made our relationship stronger. I have been able to witness my sister becoming a wonderfully caring and loving mother to my niece. I have watched my parents become fantastic grandparents to my niece. I have watched my niece, Selena, grow and develop a personality. I have watched her become familiar with me and become a very loving girl. And lastly, I have watched myself grow in terms of strength and perseverance. I have been through the ringer. I have been worn down by life and the obstacles that I have encountered. But I have not given up. And I will not give up. I will not lay down and let these unfortunate circumstances win, I will overcome.

Here's to hoping that my 26th year is so much better than my 25th!


  1. Yes indeed! You will overcome in the power of His might.

    "Not by might, not by power, but by my Spirit says the Lord." Amen

    Thank you for visiting my blog today and for leaving an encouraging comment. It is a pleasure to meet you and visit your blog in return.

    Happy 26th Birthday when it comes round Jenna xx

    Wendy @ ECTaS

  2. Love this post! And, you WILL overcome!

  3. I will be praying for you as you end Bar Review and prepare to take the bar exam in July. I too endured the stress of taking a bar exam (although not in Oregon) and I know how painful it is! I hope the 3rd time is the charm :)

    Thanks for stopping by!

  4. Thanks so much for the kind words sister! I love you so much and wish nothing but the best for you ALWAYS! : )